"If you don't like how things are, change it! You're not a tree."



It's already the 08th day of Raya, but it doesn't feel like Hari Raya to me. Well, maybe because I'm in camp, and not jalan-ing! HAHAHA.

Yesterday was such a shocking plus busy day! Ayah suddenly fainted on site and his friend took a freaking three hours to call me! When I received the call at noon, Ibu & I was busy preparing food cause Aunt & Gang was coming over.

My voice started to tremble and I started to cry when the caller said,

CALLER : Bilang Ibu, Ayah kat hospital, tadi dia mabok nak pengsan, then ambulance hantar dia pergi hospital.

ME : *Panic gile babi* HUH?? WHAT HAPPENED?? IS HE OKAY?? HOSPITAL MANE??

CALLER : Oh, Dia mabok nak pengsan. Dah about three hours he's there, you can go and see him. Dia kat SGH.

ME : OKAY THANK YOU BYE!

So I quickly called Aunt and asked them to send Ibu, Me & Syifa over to SGH. Abang Zul drove us there. So fast, like F1 racer! HAHAHA.

When we reached SGH, it was quite pack! The nurses & security guard said I can't see Ayah, and I got mad! HAHAHAHA! Then I called Ayah to tell the nurse to call our names! Then the nurse finally did!

Alhamdulillah Ayah is in stable condition. He is just tired & stressed. I cried cause I thought it had something to do with his heart, cause when he went for heart surgery two years back, the Doctor said something like he can go anytime. Kepala hotak lah bilang Doctor tuu!

After a few hours of waiting, Ayah was discharged, Alhamdulillah. Ayah insisted on going back to 1st Div to fetch his car! So we cabbed down to Queensway and returned his F1 pass and fetched the car. I drove back home cause I think it's safer! NYAHAHA!

The Aunts & Uncles & Cousins & Grandparents came at night, for Raya and also to visit Ayah. Ayah was trying his best to act like as if nothing is wrong with him, but too bad they all saw through him! Of course they can, cause we are family! HAHAHA. ;p

I achieved my goal in ironing my uniform myself! HAHAHA! Except that Ayah volunteered to polish my shoes! Awww..

"It's better to fight for something than against something."



I'm home again!! *smiles widely*

First and foremost, I would like to wish Nur Amalina Faiz a Happy "sixteenth" Birthday!! HEHEHE! Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki! Kesian birthday-birthday kene jadi Cinderella. Tapi takpe, besok awak so-called dapat gaji. HEHEHEHE!

I'm doing well in camp. As in, I'm adapting just fine, Alhamdulillah. *smiles* However, things just have to happen without you knowing. On my freaking birthday, I officially turned single as well. Oh wells. That's just life, and I have to go on with it. It's okay though. Cause I have all my friends and squad mates to cheer me up and make me laugh like some idiot. HAHAHA! Thanks guys, and girls! ;D

Whatever it is, I would consider the week as interesting and great. I can see myself opening up, as in, not that I'm not being myself, but it's just that I need time to open up to people I just know. Except for some lahh. heh hehh ;p IPPT is coming soon, and I really need to work on my 2.4KM run. Oh that's a normal thing. Haha. But still, I have to do my best to get a Silver. *smiles widely*

I haven't been preparing for Raya. For example, kemas rumah and buat kuih. Hahaha. It's not that I don't wana help, but I'm away at camp. But I'll help out later in the evening after break fast. =))

One month have past by reallyreally fast. I can't wait to go get my STRAWBERRY DONUT at J.CO !! ;p

"A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be."



I deleted all my previous entries, cause I felt like it. I need to start afresh, I guess. Oh wells. *shrugs*

It has been one week plus since I started training. I'm starting to bond with my Squad mates, & my hair is short! I'm loving life there. HAHAHA. Alhamdulillah, I didn't even feel home sick. Maybe cause I've prepared myself? Hehehe ;D

I've made great friends there, but I believe that we all still have a long way to go to know each other really well. However, whatever it is, it's just great that we all can get along really well! *smiles widely*

Boyfriend & I have been arguing over and over. I've reached the point whereby I don't know what else to do, or feel, or say. I'm just lost and confused and speechless. Whatever happens, and whatever it is, I'll still be me. I don't wana be like what I used to be, cause I used to be weak, and cry about small little things. It just makes me feel so worthless. I'm not being kerek or whatsoever, but I have to be strong and firm in standing up for myself, & what I believe in. Sigh.

Other than setbacks, life have been just great, Alhamdulillah. Birthday & Raya is coming real soon. I'm getting excited! As long as my squad mates don't sabo me on my Birthday lahh! HAHAHA!

Basically, this entry is just to update you guys about how I'm doing, after a week plus of not blogging! hahaha. I've been busy laa. No matter how busy I am, I'm still doing great. A minor setback won't bring me down. I'm strong, what!! *smiles widely*

Until you love me.

♥ Nazurah