YouAndMeEqualsForever

2010-02-20T16:56:00.001+08:00

"The past can't see you, but the future is listening."

AH. IT IS FINALLY, TODAY, I HAVE THE TIME TO EDIT AND BLOG! HAHAHA, GOODNESS! *shakes head*

So this makes my first entry for 2010! Yay! HAHAHA!

I didn't blog for the whole of last month. For a simple reason being that I'm busy. HAHA! Well, yes, I have been busy. Even busier now, and the days, weeks, months to come. Oh wells. *Shrugs*

I have a whole bunch of things to blog about, but somehow I'm just a lil lazy to put the words into sentences for now. A whole lot of things happened. Happy and sad. But whatever it is, I'm just glad that everything and everyone is fine, Alhamdulillah. *smiles widely* (Well, except for that piece of news I received this afternoon. Sigh..)

I have been watching VCDs/DVDs since after I had breakfast. My goodness. But it's okay, cause I'll be going out later, so it's okay!

I have been a reallyreallyreally happy girl since few weeks back, thanks to someone special. *smiles widely* And I really hope I'd stay this way, Insya'Allah. Let's just hope this is not another phase in my life. Or should I say, our life? *winks*

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.

2009-12-31T23:30:00.001+08:00

"Pick battles big enough to matter, small enough to win."

Today, Eve of new Year, last day of 2009. A whole lot of events happened, which seems like years ago. However, it was at the starting of 2009. =]

At times, I'd forget that I graduated from ITE in March this year. Haha. I started working as a Student Care Teacher the day after my last paper. However, worked as a Student Care Teacher for only about two months, due to some issues. Oh wells.

Although it was for only two months, I've learnt a whole lot of things! For example, how to be more patient with children, and how to deal with them individually. HEE.

So while waiting to be enlisted in the Force, I worked temporarily at Giordano. Yes, at times, I do forget that I used to work there! Oh my god I really need some brain boosters or something real bad! HAHAHAHAHA!

I then got enlisted in September. When I received the letter, I was reallyreallyreally happy and excited! Not sure why, but I've always wanted to be one lahh. However, although I was happy and excited, a part of me was holding me back, cause I was afraid of how Ibu's reaction will be.

I didn't bother about how Ayah's reaction will be cause I know he will be more than happy and excited than I am. And yes, he was! HAHA. When I finally told Ibu, she laughed in disbelief. Which actually made my heart sank abit. Howells. It's okay lah. Ibu was just being Ibu =]

Besides the good news, my three year relationship ended due to some issues. Other than that, I met with a whole bunch of people whom I call friends. Especially my Dearest Beloved R16!! *smiles widely*

Well, they are just like Family to me. For a simple reason being that we see each other and do everything together, everyday. Well, except for when we go to the toilet lah kan! HEHEHEHEHE!! Besides the great bunch, there are also a few others that I got to know, and are close to my heart. Like the saying goes, You can never be lonely if you like the person you're alone with (:

Although I have been doing a whole lot of smiling and laughing, there are stacks of issues that have been bothering me deep down. Sigh.

For instance, recently, I've lost someone who is Dear to me. A close friend, a companion. I chose the word companion cause the person's always there for me whenever I needed a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on. Someone whom I could share my joys and sorrows with. After so many years, it is only now that things decided to happen. We somehow forced to go our separate ways due to some issues. Never did I imagine that that day would come. It's a saddening thing lah, duh! It's the bond that we have/share that makes our friendship special. Friendship isn't a big thing. It is a million little things. And that relationships comes and goes, but the real thing will stick around.

Sighing and feeling sorry for myself won't change anything. It is obvious that the person feels the same way as I do, only that due to some circumstances, things have to be this way. Ah, but that doesn't mean it has to stay this way, right? *smiles*

2009 is ending in a few minutes, and 2010 will soon be here. No doubt it will be a busier year for most of the people I know, but we still need to take care of our health! *smiles widely*

I've got a few resolutions though. But on the very top of my list is to LOSELOSELOSE ALL THE KILOS THAT I'VE GAINED during the last few weeks!! HAHAHA! I still can't believe I can even actually gain weight during training lah, Oh My God !!

It's okay. Starting next week, I shall cut down on my junk food intake! 2010 is here, and I need to LOSE THOSE KILOS!! HEHEHEHEHEHE!!

Wishing all of you a Happy 2010 filled with joy, prosperity & peace! Do stay healthy! *smiles widely*

2009-12-21T18:07:00.001+08:00

"A smile is a curve that sets everything straight."

Block leave ends today!
*Groans & rolls eyes*

Back to the same old routine! It just simply means that I cannot take my time rolling in bed, cannot take my own sweet time showering and doing my hair, and the list goes on! HAHAHA. But it's okay! I'm looking forward to seeing my R16! Yaaayy!! *smiles widely*

Let's see what I've been doing during the leave. Okay, I know I blogged about some of the days, but let's just recap okay? Hehh.

Started with getting a new camera for Myself!
Laughing-like-as-if-there's-no-tomorrow Outing with ♥Daud Dearest!
NazMayNaz♥ Outing with the ladies! *smiles widely*
Weight-~~Gaining~~ Road Trip/Holiday with Beloved Family!
Short Gossip Session with Dearest ♥Shaz&Chaz♥ cum Haircut!
Catching-Up/Gossip Session with Hamdan!♥
Celebrated Ayah's 46th!♥ Weight-Gaining Part Two!!
Short Meet-Up/Gossip Session with Dearest Faiqah!♥
Lunch with Taufiq ~~Cookie~~ ;p ♥

Those are the highlights! I've spent time with the people close to my heart! I have been smiling and laughing a whole damn lot! I hope it stays that way for the rest of my life! Insya'Allah. No doubt there will be setbacks and stuff, but as long as I know how to pick myself up and enjoy life, everything is gonna be just fine! ;D

I'm dreading to go back to camp! I'm sure everyone else is as well! However, it will only be for three nights this week! So I guess it's still okay laahhh. HEHEHE! *smiles widely*

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to, who will
stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right

You can never be lonely if you like the person you're alone with.

2009-12-20T13:07:00.000+08:00

"The only people with whom you should try to get even are those who have helped you."

First and foremost, HAPPY 46TH to the Old Man above! It's abit different this year, cause we'd usually be diseberang tambak to celebrate his birthday, but this year we went earlier! HEHEHE!

Well, the much needed road trip was just okay. Cause I feel that I need a longer one? Went Genting, just like the previous years. My goodness I have been going Genting every year since I was two! Have been going on the same rides over and over for the past err decade or so. HAHAHA. Ahh, that's the reason why I didn't go on any rides this year. I went shopping instead. My god, I've never shopped that much in Malaysia before. HAHAHA.

It rained reallyreally heavily the second night. Just when we thought of walking down to the Pasar Malam at Theme Park Hotel. Imagine all the people on the roller coaster rides and such? They must have got quite a shock lah obviously. It was raining reallyreally heavily plus thunder and lightning! *frowns with shocked face*

Drove down to Malacca the next day, and then it was HOME SWEET HOME!! Then I got my hair cut on Friday! OHMYGOD I LOOK LIKE A BOY!! NNNOOOOOO!!! hahaha! Butbut, someone said to me, "A rose is still a rose, no matter how one looks at it." Aawwww so sweeet! hehehe!

So, leave will be ending tomorrow. *rolls eyes* My heart feels so damn heavy thinking about having to go back to camp! But I miss waking up in the morning and rushing for the toilet! HAHAHA! It's okay, I guess? Cause there will be Christmas holiday, and not forgetting, New Year!! *smiles widely*

Currently I'm just so insecure about my hair and my weight! I can't believe I can even gain weight during Training, ohmygod! My hair needs to grow faster, and I need to lose all the kilos that I've gained! *frowns & rolls eyes*

To learn something new, take the path you took yesterday. (;

2009-12-14T17:49:00.001+08:00

"Friendship isn't a big thing. It is a million little things."

I'M ON LEAVE!! YAAAYYY!! "smiles widely*

Finally there's a break from training! HEHEHEHE! Although there's a break, my schedule is packed with outings and such. But it's okay! It's not everytime that I'm at home on weekdays! *smiles widely with peace sign* HEHEHEHE!

Let's start with the weekends, yeah? Woke up early in the morning and went jogging with Naz! It's quite weird, cause we'd always jog in the evenings instead of in the morning! HAHA.

A few hours later after breakfast, accompanied Daud the Stitch to the Polyclinic. Why?? Cause he became Superman the night before. Hahaha! My goodness. Buat orang shock monkey sesaat aje! Despite his injury, he was nice enough to teman me go here and there. HEHEHEHE! *smiles widely*

I BOUGHT MYSELF A NEW CAMERA!!
Yes, I know that I've been spending a lot on gadgets! First was the iPod. Then it was the Netbook. And now it's a new camera! Next will be iPhone?! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! But I guess that will have to wait! I've got nothing else to buy after I buy that, I think. HEHEHE! I had a great Saturday. Laughed and laughed, I swear abs could come out anytime! =D

Sunday, which was yesterday, was well-spent with Dearest Naz & May! Went here and there like as if we're on a tour. We got quite cranky at Bugis as it was really crowded and I was hungry. HAHAHAHAHAHA! So decided to cab to Airport for dinner! Yay I was a happy girl. Until after dinner, which I felt so bloated and fat! HAHAHA! It's okay, I'll eat less after I come back from holiday! *smiles*

Reached home, I was slapped with a slight flu and cough! Not forgetting sore throat! Just when I'm about to leave for holiday! ERGH! Yeah, I'm leaving for Malaysia tomorrow with Family. Yes, I'm veryvery excited cause I'm so in need of a road trip, my gosh! *rolls eyes & smiles widely*

Everythings' packed, and I'm ready to leave! I bet I can't sleep tonight! *smiles widely*

I MISS MY LONG HAIR :(

2009-12-06T16:01:00.002+08:00

"To believe with certainty, we must begin with doubting."

I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride this week. Well, although I didn't buy any tickets or drive to the amusement park, I was. But I guess it's just life, and I'll just have to deal with it. Sigh.

A few events this week. Or was it last? HAHA, OKAY.

Err..

Had shooting on Monday. Alhamdulillah, it went well, although I only managed to get Second Class. But it's okay, as long as I passed!

On Thursday, had PDT test. But it was only half of it? Hmm.. Alhamdulillah, it went well too, although there were some hiccups. HAHA.

Had my first IPPT on Friday. It was a stupid thing that I tersandung kaki sendiri and fell while running my Shuttle Run. It was stupid lah! And I injured my knee. GOSH! But overall, I scored five points for everything except for Standing Broad Jump, which I only scored two points. Nevertheless, there is still three more IPPTs to go through. So I still have time to improve on my Standing Broad Jump! *smiles widely*

Finally it's the weekends! I had a fun-filled Saturday with Dearest Oat! Laughed and laughed like as if I cannot laugh anymore. Decided to go Public instead of Private due to the wet weather. I'm still smiling to myself while typing this. HAHAHA!

Went over to Wheelock Place hoping for an iPod replacement/repair, but too bad, the warranty has expired! Walked around Orchard aimlessly cause we lost our way. HAHAHA! But I had fun though! *smiles widely*

Finally settled to Dhoby Ghaut for Ninja Assassin at The Cathay. Had lunch-cum-dinner, and continued with the never ending laughters, my gosh! By the end of the outing, I swear I could have abs anytime soon! That is if I continue laughing for the week. HAHAHA!

The most wasted of all days is one without laughter.

2009-11-29T18:53:00.000+08:00

"Silence is the true friend that never betrays."

Well, the plan to spend time with the Aunts & Cousins had to be cancelled due to some political reviews. *Rolls eyes* Had a Twins' Outing instead! It has been quite a while since Naz & I had that. Can't wait for more of those! *smiles widely*

Most of the times, things happen without you knowing. And it's actually expected, but unexpected. Now I know why I have been feeling what I felt since few days back. And why am I saying all these here, again? OH, cause I want to? I'm feeling cranky.

I have been feeling cranky & grumpy.
OH OMG, THIS SUCKS!

Currently, I'm feeling feverish. Not sure why though. Maybe it's due to the too much intake of junk food? Well, I suppose so? Sigh.

The long weekend is over, and it's back to same old routine again! Time to stop daydreaming for four and a half days!

Silence is medication for sorrow.

2009-11-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

"You can't wake a person who is pretending to be asleep."

EYE CANDY ♥

I'm not a stalker or something.
But seeing him on TV makes me smile really wide to the widest!
HAHAHA!

Okay, how I wish I know him personally! GRR!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Dream on lah Naz! hurhur .
Alaaaahh, saje nak berangan kejap!

Oh wells.
The day's over, so I guess the same old routine is back in business. I will most probably drag Ayah to Mustafa Centre tomorrow. However, will be hanging out with the cousins & aunts in the evening after Kakpi ends her Dental Class. Yeahh.

So my Hari Raya Haji was okay. Only that it's not as chaotic as Hari Raya Puasa. Nevertheless, I never fail to fall asleep in May's room! (Itu perkara biasa ya?) Hmm..

I have got a whole bunch of things to blog about, but I just don't know where to start. Oh, that's normal. Ergh. I hate feeling cranky and grumpy and all words that describes those two words. Goshh.

The scars you can't see are the hardest to heal.

2009-11-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

"Most people are very decisive when it comes to avoiding decisions."

TIME FOR A PROPERPROPER UPDATE !!

Let's recall what I've been doing.
*taps right index finger onto lower lip*

Whatever it is, I am reallyreally excited to blog about my new lappy! YES, I BOUGHT MYSELF A LAPPY!! HAHAHA!! (Yes, I'm blogging using my lappy! HAHA!) Acer Aspire One. Well, I thought of buying it next month, but I guess I'm just impatient after thinking about my iPod and the desktop and all the things that is related to the tech stuff ? hahaha. *peace*

I've transferred all the photos and songs over.
I've downloaded MSN, IE8 and etc..
All I need to do now is get this lappy a name!
HAHAHAHA! I know it's lame to some of you, but who cares?
IT'S MINE !! GAHH!

I haven't been having enough sleep since few weeks back. I slept in reallyreally early last night as I had nothing to do. Well, I had wanted to read a storybook which I just bought two weeks ago. Butbutbut, I fell asleep while reading it! Like as if I was reading myself a bedtime story! hahaha! Since I slept early, I woke up reallyreally early this morning! (Feeling-feeling nak gi water parade!)

I have been eating a whole damn lot of junks lately. I hate it! It makes me feel fat!! Just when I thought of having lesser intakes of junk food, I'm slapped with a long weekend! There will be a Food Paradise tomorrow. Or should I say, EATING PARADE?!! Instead of water parade! Haha.

I think I'm blogging nonsensical stuffs currently, which might not make any sense at all. Just cause I'm sleepy, but I want to blog so badly, and I'm accompanying Ibu make corn cupcakes for tomorrow. Not forgetting, listening to Takbir over the radio. Yeahh. *left eyebrow up*

Had a short chat with Faiqah over the phone on Sunday. OMG IT HAS BEEN AGES! The last time we spent time together was, four to five months back? Goshh. We have been busy, I guess? We shall meet up soon!! Much misses! ;p

I'm looking forward to meeting the nephew & cousins & aunts & uncles & grandparents!
*smiles widely*

I find comfort in your company.

2009-11-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

"A hug is worth a thousand words."

Weekends was well spent with Dearest people!

HAHA-HEHE here and there!
SHOPPING here and there!
EATEATEAT until bloated!

But whatever it is, I had fun with the girls, and You!
*wide-wide smile*

Only that in you, which is me, can hear what I'm saying.

2009-11-08T14:34:00.000+08:00

"A child can ask questions that a wise man cannot answer."

I MISS THEM REALLYREALLYREALLY MUCH !!

Although they used to always make me angry and scream my lungs out,
at the end of the day, they never fail to make me smile.

2009-11-08T10:42:00.002+08:00

"We judge others by their behaviour. We judge ourselves by our intentions."

Is that fair ?

HTBC is over, and there is a whole lot of things happening, a whole lot of things to catch up on, a whole lot of things to be done, a wholewhole lot laaaahh! =\

Whenever I think of my locker, I feel so disorganized, so messed up, so oh-my-god-I-feel-like-taking-everything-out-of-my-locker-and-reorganize-it !! GRR !! Seriously, I need to reorganize it! Okay, maybe tonight, after polishing my drill boots? Or maybe straight away upon arrival? Hmmmm...

On the other hand, my tummy have been upset since starting of the week, up till today. Oh, just what the hell did I eat, I'm not sure. Hello Panda overdose?? HAHAHAHAHA NOOO!! Oh wells, let's just hope I'll be fine. *peace*

I'm not sure if anyone noticed, but I have been cranky. Oh wells. I have been doing alot of thinking lately. There are things that have been bothering me, and still is. Sometimes, I'm not sure if it makes any difference whether I'm here, or not. I'm not being pessimistic, but I'm just questioning my existence.

This is the part where I don't know how to put words into sentences.

Home doesn't feel like home. Things may appear normal & as usual, but there is this naggy feeling which tells me that there is more to it than meets the eye? Is the sentence right? Does it make sense? Ergh, why am I trying so hard to put words into sentences? I'm just upset. I haven't been spending quality time with My Parents, just cause Ayah & I are busy, and yeah, shit happens. Ah whatever, let's not think about it now. *frowns*

I reallyreallyreally need a road trip .

Oh let's put that aside now.
I was quite upset for almost half of yesterday. Now I'm really thinking of getting my own lappy, so I won't need to share with anyone who will try to spoil it! HAHA, I'm not being selfish, but, yeahh. Luckily my iPod decided to wake up from his coma. If it didn't, I think I'd be upset for the whole of next week! Haha.

Today feels so empty. Cause I've done whatever that needs to be done. Gosh. =\

2009-10-23T11:09:00.005+08:00

"Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are."

Hormonal Imbalance !
Ergh. Who cares anyway, kan?

Oh wells.
I didn't mean to snap anyone.
I'm really sorry.

This weekend is going to be really tiring for me. Just as the week is getting busier and more tiring, I think I'm falling sick. Why? Cause I'm having sore throat and feeling feverish. My gosh, of all the weeks, why now?! Ergh!

There will be QC/QR gathering tomorrow, and I won't be joining! How sad! But it's okay. Work comes first! Sorry lah, but they should understand, right? *left eyebrow up & shrugs*

I MISS WATCHING F.R.I.E.N.D.S !!
I should go get the DVD sooooooooon ! *smiles widely*
But the sad thing is that I'm not sure when I will have the WHOLE day to watch tv! BOOO!

To whom it may concern.
You, yes, You.
Takmo eksyen tak tahu siape ek! ;p

Don't put limit to yourself. Your dreams are waiting to be realised. Don't leave your important decisions to chance. Reach your peak, your goal and your prize. If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me. ;)

- Nazurah ♥

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing.

2009-10-18T01:02:00.002+08:00

"Silence is a text, easy to misread."

First and foremost, I FORGOT TO BRING MY IPOD HOME !! *screams my lungs out & makes sad face & smacks forehead*

Ah, see lah, now cannot put in the songs that i reallyreallyreally want to listen tooooo!! It's okay, I can wait for another week. It's okay, it's okay. ;D

Oh wells. I have been laughing too much for the past few weeks. It is not that I hate laughing too much or something, but I personally feel and know that I am just laughing off the things that have been bothering me.

It's quite difficult for me to portray my inner feelings now as I am afraid that my trainings will be affected, and on weekends, I have other things to think about and do. Sigh.

It is only today that I realised why I have been laughing too much. Okay, I know I always laugh at the smallest things, but this time, I guess there is another reason for laughing too much. It's a good thing, cause I'm always around people who can make me laugh like an idiot. Laughter is the best medicine kan ?? But I still think that laughing and crying at the same time is the best remedy!! Hmmmmm...

I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be angry or sad. But then again, there's no point in being angry or feeling sad. Everythings' happened, and it's all over. I just need to get things off my chest, that's all. It's not easy, but I have to! Laughing really helps, but there's this idiotic voice which keeps asking me, "OI WHY THE HELL ARE YOU LAUGHING?!" *rolls eyes*

Maybe the past three years is just a mistake. Maybe the past three years is just another phase. Maybe the past three years is just for me to reflect and think about what I reallyreally deserve and need. Maybe the past three years is just for me to learn the ups and downs of being in a relationship. Maybe I was just too young to think about what's right? Ergh.

NO, I'M NEITHER REGRETTING NOR LOOKING BACK. I'M JUST REFLECTING !

AH. Maybe being where I am now is a reallyreally good thing! Cause I have all those people who never fail to make me laugh each day, no matter which side of the bed I wake up at! Alhamdulillah :D

I'm not one who stays down for long. A minor setback won't bring me down. I'm really grateful to have known that great bunch of people. Without them, my life wouldn't be this colourful. *smiles widely*

Silence is one of the hardest arguments to refute.

2009-10-11T11:33:00.002+08:00

"Happiness is never stopping to think if you are."

FINALLY I HAVE THE TIME TO UPDATEUPDATEUPDATE !! HAHAHA!

I know it has been two weeks or so since I last updated. I just can't find the time and the right words to blog! HAHA.

In general, I'm doing great, Alhamdulillah. My Family & I finally went for Jalan Raya last week! Although it was only like, five houses, I had great fun! I had great fun meeting/crapping with the cousins, aunts & uncles. We have sooooo many things to share, but so little time. Ah, that's normal. HEH.

Went over OC's house yesterday with the squad for Raya. It was fun! Okay, I always have fun when I'm with great company. Well, who doesn't kan? HEHE! Went jalan-jalan after that, and had karaoke session at night! However, I must say that I didn't sing to my heart's content during last night's karaoke session! For a simple excuse that Ayah is not there to set the songs for meee!! MENGADE-NGADE!! HAHAHA! Should bring Ayah the next time!! *smiles widely*

Last night was the first time in a few months that I came home latelatelate! hahaha, it has been awhile since I went out and have fun! LOL. Woke up this morning with FACEBOOK in mind! Yelah mentang-mentang semalam dah kene sound upload gambar! UPLOADED ALREADY EK! *rolls eyes* HAHAHA! Two things off my to-do list. A few more to go, like, ironing my uniform, polishing shoes, and packing of the bag! HHMMMMMMM...

I feel like I haven't been in contact with the outside world for awhile. Have been busybusybusy! I have a whole damn lot of things to blog about, but the words are all in a mess and I just can't seem to put them into the right sentences! Maybe I should bring along a notebook to camp and write down all of the things that I wana blog about! ERGH.

Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorang itu kalau seseorang itu tidak mengubah nasibnya sendiri.

Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari. Dia datangkan petir dan kilat. Kita tertanya-tanya kemana hilangnya matahari.
Rupa-rupanya Allah berikan kita pelangi.

So I kinda sorta maybe like You a lot more than I had originally planned. TSK.

2009-09-27T13:32:00.002+08:00

"If you don't like how things are, change it! You're not a tree."

It's already the 08th day of Raya, but it doesn't feel like Hari Raya to me. Well, maybe because I'm in camp, and not jalan-ing! HAHAHA.

Yesterday was such a shocking plus busy day! Ayah suddenly fainted on site and his friend took a freaking three hours to call me! When I received the call at noon, Ibu & I was busy preparing food cause Aunt & Gang was coming over.

My voice started to tremble and I started to cry when the caller said,

CALLER : Bilang Ibu, Ayah kat hospital, tadi dia mabok nak pengsan, then ambulance hantar dia pergi hospital.

ME : *Panic gile babi* HUH?? WHAT HAPPENED?? IS HE OKAY?? HOSPITAL MANE??

CALLER : Oh, Dia mabok nak pengsan. Dah about three hours he's there, you can go and see him. Dia kat SGH.

ME : OKAY THANK YOU BYE!

So I quickly called Aunt and asked them to send Ibu, Me & Syifa over to SGH. Abang Zul drove us there. So fast, like F1 racer! HAHAHA.

When we reached SGH, it was quite pack! The nurses & security guard said I can't see Ayah, and I got mad! HAHAHAHA! Then I called Ayah to tell the nurse to call our names! Then the nurse finally did!

Alhamdulillah Ayah is in stable condition. He is just tired & stressed. I cried cause I thought it had something to do with his heart, cause when he went for heart surgery two years back, the Doctor said something like he can go anytime. Kepala hotak lah bilang Doctor tuu!

After a few hours of waiting, Ayah was discharged, Alhamdulillah. Ayah insisted on going back to 1st Div to fetch his car! So we cabbed down to Queensway and returned his F1 pass and fetched the car. I drove back home cause I think it's safer! NYAHAHA!

The Aunts & Uncles & Cousins & Grandparents came at night, for Raya and also to visit Ayah. Ayah was trying his best to act like as if nothing is wrong with him, but too bad they all saw through him! Of course they can, cause we are family! HAHAHA. ;p

I achieved my goal in ironing my uniform myself! HAHAHA! Except that Ayah volunteered to polish my shoes! Awww..

2009-09-19T14:05:00.000+08:00

"It's better to fight for something than against something."

I'm home again!! *smiles widely*

First and foremost, I would like to wish Nur Amalina Faiz a Happy "sixteenth" Birthday!! HEHEHE! Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki! Kesian birthday-birthday kene jadi Cinderella. Tapi takpe, besok awak so-called dapat gaji. HEHEHEHE!

I'm doing well in camp. As in, I'm adapting just fine, Alhamdulillah. *smiles* However, things just have to happen without you knowing. On my freaking birthday, I officially turned single as well. Oh wells. That's just life, and I have to go on with it. It's okay though. Cause I have all my friends and squad mates to cheer me up and make me laugh like some idiot. HAHAHA! Thanks guys, and girls! ;D

Whatever it is, I would consider the week as interesting and great. I can see myself opening up, as in, not that I'm not being myself, but it's just that I need time to open up to people I just know. Except for some lahh. heh hehh ;p IPPT is coming soon, and I really need to work on my 2.4KM run. Oh that's a normal thing. Haha. But still, I have to do my best to get a Silver. *smiles widely*

I haven't been preparing for Raya. For example, kemas rumah and buat kuih. Hahaha. It's not that I don't wana help, but I'm away at camp. But I'll help out later in the evening after break fast. =))

One month have past by reallyreally fast. I can't wait to go get my STRAWBERRY DONUT at J.CO !! ;p

2009-09-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

"A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be."

I deleted all my previous entries, cause I felt like it. I need to start afresh, I guess. Oh wells. *shrugs*

It has been one week plus since I started training. I'm starting to bond with my Squad mates, & my hair is short! I'm loving life there. HAHAHA. Alhamdulillah, I didn't even feel home sick. Maybe cause I've prepared myself? Hehehe ;D

I've made great friends there, but I believe that we all still have a long way to go to know each other really well. However, whatever it is, it's just great that we all can get along really well! *smiles widely*

Boyfriend & I have been arguing over and over. I've reached the point whereby I don't know what else to do, or feel, or say. I'm just lost and confused and speechless. Whatever happens, and whatever it is, I'll still be me. I don't wana be like what I used to be, cause I used to be weak, and cry about small little things. It just makes me feel so worthless. I'm not being kerek or whatsoever, but I have to be strong and firm in standing up for myself, & what I believe in. Sigh.

Other than setbacks, life have been just great, Alhamdulillah. Birthday & Raya is coming real soon. I'm getting excited! As long as my squad mates don't sabo me on my Birthday lahh! HAHAHA!

Basically, this entry is just to update you guys about how I'm doing, after a week plus of not blogging! hahaha. I've been busy laa. No matter how busy I am, I'm still doing great. A minor setback won't bring me down. I'm strong, what!! *smiles widely*

Until you love me.

2009-07-30T16:50:00.007+08:00

"People change and forget to tell each other."

Maybe I realised, maybe I didn't.

Oh wells. Baby told me that he feels that I have changed. I'm not gona deny it, cause to a certain extent, I know I have. It's not him. Maybe it's just me. For a simple reason being that I feel the need to have certainty. Certainty of my mental state of being without doubt. Does it make sense? Ergh, who cares.

Assumptions are facts taken for granted, without proof. Assumptions are the termites of relationships. Be it with someone special, family or friends. It is like a slow poison which can slowly ruin your long term relationship. I believe that it is best to keep your ego aside, and openly discuss your problems and views instead of assuming things, which will eventually turn you into strangers.

I treasure relationships. Be it with family, friends, or people whom I've just met. And I believe that it's not worth it losing them because of some assumptions. Trust & communication is the basis of any relationship and you must not let your trust waver amidst the storm of any misunderstandings.

I very well know that I need to stop looking for outside solutions for my inner issues. I know I gota do some soul searching cause it's been stuffy deep down. However, taking a look into your soul is no easy thing. The challenge lies not only in the discipline and humility it requires. It is difficult primarily because of what we encounter when we get there.

And I believe that sometimes, it is fear that gets in the way of admitting. Some Humans are living in denial cause they are afraid to accept how people view them. So in turn, they tend to think negatively.

I believe that everything happens for a reason, good or bad. You just have got to buckle up.

Quoted from Shamz,

"It's sad when people you know become people you knew."