"The past can't see you, but the future is listening."



AH. IT IS FINALLY, TODAY, I HAVE THE TIME TO EDIT AND BLOG! HAHAHA, GOODNESS! *shakes head*

So this makes my first entry for 2010! Yay! HAHAHA!

I didn't blog for the whole of last month. For a simple reason being that I'm busy. HAHA! Well, yes, I have been busy. Even busier now, and the days, weeks, months to come. Oh wells. *Shrugs*

I have a whole bunch of things to blog about, but somehow I'm just a lil lazy to put the words into sentences for now. A whole lot of things happened. Happy and sad. But whatever it is, I'm just glad that everything and everyone is fine, Alhamdulillah. *smiles widely* (Well, except for that piece of news I received this afternoon. Sigh..)

I have been watching VCDs/DVDs since after I had breakfast. My goodness. But it's okay, cause I'll be going out later, so it's okay!

I have been a reallyreallyreally happy girl since few weeks back, thanks to someone special. *smiles widely* And I really hope I'd stay this way, Insya'Allah. Let's just hope this is not another phase in my life. Or should I say, our life? *winks*

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.

"Pick battles big enough to matter, small enough to win."



Today, Eve of new Year, last day of 2009. A whole lot of events happened, which seems like years ago. However, it was at the starting of 2009. =]

At times, I'd forget that I graduated from ITE in March this year. Haha. I started working as a Student Care Teacher the day after my last paper. However, worked as a Student Care Teacher for only about two months, due to some issues. Oh wells.

Although it was for only two months, I've learnt a whole lot of things! For example, how to be more patient with children, and how to deal with them individually. HEE.

So while waiting to be enlisted in the Force, I worked temporarily at Giordano. Yes, at times, I do forget that I used to work there! Oh my god I really need some brain boosters or something real bad! HAHAHAHAHA!

I then got enlisted in September. When I received the letter, I was reallyreallyreally happy and excited! Not sure why, but I've always wanted to be one lahh. However, although I was happy and excited, a part of me was holding me back, cause I was afraid of how Ibu's reaction will be.

I didn't bother about how Ayah's reaction will be cause I know he will be more than happy and excited than I am. And yes, he was! HAHA. When I finally told Ibu, she laughed in disbelief. Which actually made my heart sank abit. Howells. It's okay lah. Ibu was just being Ibu =]

Besides the good news, my three year relationship ended due to some issues. Other than that, I met with a whole bunch of people whom I call friends. Especially my Dearest Beloved R16!! *smiles widely*

Well, they are just like Family to me. For a simple reason being that we see each other and do everything together, everyday. Well, except for when we go to the toilet lah kan! HEHEHEHEHE!! Besides the great bunch, there are also a few others that I got to know, and are close to my heart. Like the saying goes, You can never be lonely if you like the person you're alone with (:

Although I have been doing a whole lot of smiling and laughing, there are stacks of issues that have been bothering me deep down. Sigh.

For instance, recently, I've lost someone who is Dear to me. A close friend, a companion. I chose the word companion cause the person's always there for me whenever I needed a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on. Someone whom I could share my joys and sorrows with. After so many years, it is only now that things decided to happen. We somehow forced to go our separate ways due to some issues. Never did I imagine that that day would come. It's a saddening thing lah, duh! It's the bond that we have/share that makes our friendship special. Friendship isn't a big thing. It is a million little things. And that relationships comes and goes, but the real thing will stick around.

Sighing and feeling sorry for myself won't change anything. It is obvious that the person feels the same way as I do, only that due to some circumstances, things have to be this way. Ah, but that doesn't mean it has to stay this way, right? *smiles*

2009 is ending in a few minutes, and 2010 will soon be here. No doubt it will be a busier year for most of the people I know, but we still need to take care of our health! *smiles widely*

I've got a few resolutions though. But on the very top of my list is to LOSELOSELOSE ALL THE KILOS THAT I'VE GAINED during the last few weeks!! HAHAHA! I still can't believe I can even actually gain weight during training lah, Oh My God !!

It's okay. Starting next week, I shall cut down on my junk food intake! 2010 is here, and I need to LOSE THOSE KILOS!! HEHEHEHEHEHE!!

Wishing all of you a Happy 2010 filled with joy, prosperity & peace! Do stay healthy! *smiles widely*

"A smile is a curve that sets everything straight."



Block leave ends today!
*Groans & rolls eyes*

Back to the same old routine! It just simply means that I cannot take my time rolling in bed, cannot take my own sweet time showering and doing my hair, and the list goes on! HAHAHA. But it's okay! I'm looking forward to seeing my R16! Yaaayy!! *smiles widely*

Let's see what I've been doing during the leave. Okay, I know I blogged about some of the days, but let's just recap okay? Hehh.

Started with getting a new camera for Myself!
Laughing-like-as-if-there's-no-tomorrow Outing with ♥Daud Dearest!
NazMayNaz♥ Outing with the ladies! *smiles widely*
Weight-Gaining Road Trip/Holiday with Beloved Family!
Short Gossip Session with Dearest ♥Shaz&Chaz♥ cum Haircut!
Catching-Up/Gossip Session with Hamdan!♥
Celebrated Ayah's 46th!♥ Weight-Gaining Part Two!!
Short Meet-Up/Gossip Session with Dearest Faiqah!♥
Lunch with Taufiq Cookie ;p ♥

Those are the highlights! I've spent time with the people close to my heart! I have been smiling and laughing a whole damn lot! I hope it stays that way for the rest of my life! Insya'Allah. No doubt there will be setbacks and stuff, but as long as I know how to pick myself up and enjoy life, everything is gonna be just fine! ;D

I'm dreading to go back to camp! I'm sure everyone else is as well! However, it will only be for three nights this week! So I guess it's still okay laahhh. HEHEHE! *smiles widely*

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to, who will
stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right

You can never be lonely if you like the person you're alone with.

"The only people with whom you should try to get even are those who have helped you."

First and foremost, HAPPY 46TH to the Old Man above! It's abit different this year, cause we'd usually be diseberang tambak to celebrate his birthday, but this year we went earlier! HEHEHE!

Well, the much needed road trip was just okay. Cause I feel that I need a longer one? Went Genting, just like the previous years. My goodness I have been going Genting every year since I was two! Have been going on the same rides over and over for the past err decade or so. HAHAHA. Ahh, that's the reason why I didn't go on any rides this year. I went shopping instead. My god, I've never shopped that much in Malaysia before. HAHAHA.

It rained reallyreally heavily the second night. Just when we thought of walking down to the Pasar Malam at Theme Park Hotel. Imagine all the people on the roller coaster rides and such? They must have got quite a shock lah obviously. It was raining reallyreally heavily plus thunder and lightning! *frowns with shocked face*

Drove down to Malacca the next day, and then it was HOME SWEET HOME!! Then I got my hair cut on Friday! OHMYGOD I LOOK LIKE A BOY!! NNNOOOOOO!!! hahaha! Butbut, someone said to me, "A rose is still a rose, no matter how one looks at it." Aawwww so sweeet! hehehe!

So, leave will be ending tomorrow. *rolls eyes* My heart feels so damn heavy thinking about having to go back to camp! But I miss waking up in the morning and rushing for the toilet! HAHAHA! It's okay, I guess? Cause there will be Christmas holiday, and not forgetting, New Year!! *smiles widely*

Currently I'm just so insecure about my hair and my weight! I can't believe I can even gain weight during Training, ohmygod! My hair needs to grow faster, and I need to lose all the kilos that I've gained! *frowns & rolls eyes*

To learn something new, take the path you took yesterday. (;

"Friendship isn't a big thing. It is a million little things."



I'M ON LEAVE!! YAAAYYY!! "smiles widely*

Finally there's a break from training! HEHEHEHE! Although there's a break, my schedule is packed with outings and such. But it's okay! It's not everytime that I'm at home on weekdays! *smiles widely with peace sign* HEHEHEHE!

Let's start with the weekends, yeah? Woke up early in the morning and went jogging with Naz! It's quite weird, cause we'd always jog in the evenings instead of in the morning! HAHA.

A few hours later after breakfast, accompanied Daud the Stitch to the Polyclinic. Why?? Cause he became Superman the night before. Hahaha! My goodness. Buat orang shock monkey sesaat aje! Despite his injury, he was nice enough to teman me go here and there. HEHEHEHE! *smiles widely*

I BOUGHT MYSELF A NEW CAMERA!!
Yes, I know that I've been spending a lot on gadgets! First was the iPod. Then it was the Netbook. And now it's a new camera! Next will be iPhone?! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! But I guess that will have to wait! I've got nothing else to buy after I buy that, I think. HEHEHE! I had a great Saturday. Laughed and laughed, I swear abs could come out anytime! =D

Sunday, which was yesterday, was well-spent with Dearest Naz & May! Went here and there like as if we're on a tour. We got quite cranky at Bugis as it was really crowded and I was hungry. HAHAHAHAHAHA! So decided to cab to Airport for dinner! Yay I was a happy girl. Until after dinner, which I felt so bloated and fat! HAHAHA! It's okay, I'll eat less after I come back from holiday! *smiles*

Reached home, I was slapped with a slight flu and cough! Not forgetting sore throat! Just when I'm about to leave for holiday! ERGH! Yeah, I'm leaving for Malaysia tomorrow with Family. Yes, I'm veryvery excited cause I'm so in need of a road trip, my gosh! *rolls eyes & smiles widely*

Everythings' packed, and I'm ready to leave! I bet I can't sleep tonight! *smiles widely*

I MISS MY LONG HAIR :(

♥ Nazurah